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<\/p>\nVictoria Beckham has admitted she resented her husband after he turned their life into a ‘circus’.\u00a0<\/p>\n
After David Beckham moved to Spain\u00a0to play for Real Madrid the footballer found himself hit by claims that he had an affair with his personal assistant Rebecca Loos.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Victoria and their children Brooklyn and Romeo then relocated from the UK to be by David’s side, where the\u00a0family found themselves under intense scrutiny, with Spanish media hounding them and fans intruding in their lives.\u00a0<\/p>\n
Speaking about the experience on David’s\u00a0new\u00a0Netflix\u00a0docuseries BECKHAM,\u00a0 Victoria confessed: ‘Did I resent David? If I’m being totally honest, yes I did.’<\/p>\n
The show then cut to footage of the famous pair driving through Spain with their distressed son Brooklyn who was crying as overzealous fans pounded on the window of their car.\u00a0<\/p>\n
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‘I resented him’: Victoria Beckham admitted she was the ‘unhappiest she’d ever been’ after her David’s affair allegations turned their life into a ‘circus’ as she spoke on the BECKHAM do<\/p>\n
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Allegations: After David Beckham moved to Spain to play for Real Madrid the footballer found himself hit by claims that he had an affair with his personal assistant Rebecca Loos<\/p>\n
David attempted to console Brooklyn by announcing ‘it’s alright Buster they can’t get in the car,’ while Victoria soothed him by saying: ‘it’s alright, mummy’s got you.’\u00a0<\/p>\n
Cutting to modern day, Victoria candidly confessed: ‘If I’m being honest it’s probably the most unhappy I have ever been in my entire life.\u00a0<\/p>\n
‘It wasn’t that I was being unheard, I chose to internalise a lot of it because I was always mindful of the focus that he needed.’\u00a0<\/p>\n
David was also suffering as a result, with his performance on the pitch coming under scrutiny and Real Madrid losing\u00a0four games in a row for the first time.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Earlier in the fourth and final episode of the docuseries, Victoria spoke for the first time of the pain she suffered in the aftermath of the claims about her husband David’s alleged affair.<\/p>\n Almost 20 years after it was claimed he and the personal assistant had become close while he was playing in Spain for Real Madrid,\u00a0Victoria revealed that the months afterwards were the ‘hardest’ of her life and that she no longer felt like the couple ‘had each other’.<\/p>\n Meanwhile, David admitted he still doesn’t know how they got through the 2003 crisis but he and his former Spice Girl wife knew they had to ‘fight for their family’, and said they felt like they were ‘drowning’ when their high-profile marriage was in the headlines for months.<\/p>\n The former England captain also told how he ‘felt physically sick every day’ as he and Victoria faced a battle to save their marriage.<\/p>\n Scary:\u00a0The show then cut to footage of the famous pair driving through Spain with their distressed son Brooklyn who was crying as overzealous fans pounded on their car<\/p>\n Shocking: David stunned the world when his alleged relationship with Rebecca were revealed in the now defunct News Of The World newspaper (Rebecca Loos pictured in 2004)\u00a0<\/p>\n In a searingly honest interview in the fourth and final episode, Victoria appeared to fight back tears as she was asked if it was the hardest time in their marriage. ‘100 per cent,’ she confessed. ‘It was the hardest period for us. Because it felt like the world was against us.<\/p>\n ‘Here’s the thing, we were against each other, if I’m being completely honest. Up until Madrid sometimes it felt like us against everybody else but we were together, we were connected, we had each other. But when we were in Spain, it didn’t really feel like we had each other either. And that’s sad. I can’t even begin to tell you how hard it was. And how it affected me.’<\/p>\n David stunned the world when his alleged relationship with Rebecca were revealed in the now defunct News Of The World newspaper. At the time Victoria had decided to remain in the UK so that her young sons Brooklyn and Romeo could stay in their schools. The decision left Davidlonely, and he admits that he struggled.<\/p>\n He said: ‘When I first moved to Spain it was difficult because I had been part of a club and a family for my whole career, from the age of 15 to when I was 27. I get sold overnight, the next minute I’m in a city, I don’t speak the language. More importantly, I didn’t have my family.<\/p>\n ‘Every time that we woke up we felt there was something else… we both felt at the time that we were not losing each other but drowning.’<\/p>\n Asked how their marriage survived, David told how he feared playing football while his wife struggled to find a way through their crisis.<\/p>\n Shaking his head, he said: ‘I don’t know how we got through it, in all honestly. Victoria is everything to me, to see her hurt was incredibly difficult, but we’re fighters and at that time we needed to fight for each other, we needed to fight for our family.<\/p>\n ‘And what we had was worth fighting for. There were some days that I would wake up and think, ‘How am I going to go to work? How am I going to walk on to that training pitch? How am I going to look as if nothing’s wrong?’ I felt physically sick every day when I opened my eyes, ‘How am I going to do this?’<\/p>\n The crisis prompted Victoria to relocate to Madrid, where they bought a \u00a33million home which she says she decorated herself. She later went on to have the couple’s third son, Cruz, now 18, in the Spanish capital.<\/p>\n Victoria described their time in Madrid as a ‘nightmare’ and ‘an absolute circus’, while David said the school run was ‘live on Spanish TV’.<\/p>\n![](\"https:\/\/i.dailymail.co.uk\/1s\/2023\/10\/04\/09\/76149371-12592077-Scary_The_show_then_cut_to_footage_of_the_famous_pair_driving_th-m-30_1696407014724.jpg\")
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