Professor Green’s heartbreaking Christmas message leaves fans emotional

Professor Green opened up about mental health and festive heartache as he posted a late night emotion-filled message on Christmas Eve.

The rapper, real name Stephen Manderson, says he can’t stand this time of the year for some very good reasons.

Pro Green lost his father Peter who took his own life ten years ago and revealed his struggles towards the end of every year.

He took to Instagram and uploaded six selfies with a detail message on each explaining his mental state.

Opening up about the death of his father, he wrote: "Unfortunately we ended up arguing and the last words I said to him were "I hate you".

"The terrible thing is I never got to see him again because a few months later he killed himself.

"The moment I found out my dad had taken his own life is still as clear today as it was the moment it happened. I kept wondering why no one had seen it coming.

"I still find it quite difficult to articulate how I felt. The weird thing about grieving is it never stops."

His first message revealed his struggles around this time of year. He said: "It’s Christmas Eve, my great grandmother passed on Dec 18th when I was 13 and I’ve hated Christmas ever since.

"I’m currently home alone with a stomach bug. If you’re feeling lonely you ain’t the only one, but it’s only a couple of days so on the off chance they’re hard for you too, take the opportunity to have a look into the sadness, let it up and out.

"It’s sold to us as this joyous time of year, which to me just reminds me of all the financial stresses in my household growing up – it became more about what I didn’t have than what I did."

The Read All About It artist continued: "Don’t feel like you have to enjoy it, if you too find it hard, just know that many, many more do too. Feel free to have a chin wag in the comments about why. I’m hanging about here for a bit as I’m stuck in bed hating it too.’

"And don’t get me started on the fact that what little family I do have is fractured and there’s no one place where everyone who is still around is, because that’s what families are like, mad.

"It’s only Christmas. Just think, if you weren’t told repeatedly from every angle that it’s Christmas and it’s time to have fun it would just be another day that you probably wouldn’t struggle with.

"The only way I get through it is linking up with my pals who through the weird and wonderful ways the planet works have somehow all found each other and will be making tomorrow that little bit less miserable for each other.

"Bare love, not Christmas love, all year round love, remember, everyone’s life looks great through the gram, don’t get sucked in, focus on you and yours and remind yourself not to apply social norms to this day or any other, you can feel however you feel, as long as you’re honest about it."

Pro, 35, has always spoken up about raising awareness about male mental health.

"Photographs conjure up so many different emotions," he continued. "The ones I miss the most are the ones I never took.

"They are for me in many ways the memories I don’t have – especially the ones from my childhood. I wish I had more.

"I was having a conversation about photographs and how there are large parts of my life where there are no photographs.

"We live in an age now where we take way too many pictures. That was really when I started to incubate the idea for the single, Photographs."

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